Sunday, January 31, 2016

Andal Brindavan Nachiyar Thirumozhi

The 14th Decad of Nachiyar Thirumozhi is in the form of a rare Conversational Q & A style
Lord has compassionate qualities and blesses the faithful with everything in life after testing them briefly- Andal presents a beautiful description of her beloved and his great qualities
Red face like a ‘Sun rising over the Eastern Mountain’, Glitters like Stars on a bright night, Sparkles like a 'lightening over dark clouds'

Through the first 13 decads of Nachiyar Thirumozhi, Andal addresses her grievances of not being able to catch her beloved’s attention. Starting with Kama Deva in Thai (Paushyam) she is seen making an earnest appeal as well as sending directions and instructions to different groups. She gives life to the beautiful dark clouds, addresses the different varieties of flowers seeking their help in reaching out to her Lord and praises the sweet swinging cuckoo. She is almost envious of the Conch that is always present with the Lord despite having been born in a not so pious family. She also presents her dream of uniting with the Lord and showcases the wedding formalities.

Finally, in the 14th decad she is able to experience the Lord at Brindavan, the only time in the Nalayira Divya Prabhandham when the place finds a mention.

Q and A Prabhandham
It is a rare conversational decad in the Divya Prabhandham-  the only one  in the form of a Q and A exchange between Andal and her friends with enquiries about the whereabouts of her beloved and the description of his movements in Brindavan.

Through these verses she ‘anoints’ him with many friendly negative titles – Unruly Rogue, Lord of Inconsistencies, Butter Thief, Habitual Liar and ‘The Unsociable Lad’ involved in trifling disputes. 

And then swerves to the other extreme of showcasing his great childhood qualities. After testing her out repeatedly on her true devotion, the Lord finally provides darshan at Brindavan sending out the message that those who have unflinching faith in him will be able to experience him.

The Dark Majestic Bull
She refers to him as a dark majestic bull and the younger brother of Balarama that had strayed away into the wild and asks if anyone had seen him anywhere. They delighted her with the news that they saw a young handsome boy with beautiful locks at Brindavan.

பட்டி மேய்ந்தோர் காரேறு பலதேவர்க்கு ஓர் கீழ்க்கன்றாய்
இட்டீறிட்டு விளையாடி இங்கே போதக் கண்டீரே

இட்டமான பசுக்களை இனிது மறித்து நீருட்டி
விட்டுக் கொண்டு விளையாட விருந்தாவனத்தே கண்டோமே

She hits out at him for having left her unattended calling him a youthful butter thief who went into Ayarpadi.  Andal swings into the negative extreme referring to him as an unruly rogue. But in the same breath recovers and praises him as having curved eyebrows and wielding the Saranga bow.

அனுங்க என்னைப் பிரிவு செய்து ஆயர்பாடி கவர்ந்துண்ணும்
குணுங்கு நாறிக் குட்டேற்றைக் கோவர்தனனைக் கண்டீரே

The Gopi friends lighten her saying that they saw a lad at Brindavan who had a dark body and a red face that looked like a ‘Sun rising over the Eastern Mountain’

He was born a lover. Was he not the lover himself born as a bridegroom? She sways from praising him as a handsome lad to calling him an inept liar. She refers to him as one with inconsistencies.
தரும மறியாக் குரும்பனைத்தன் கைச் சார்ங்கமதுவே போல்
புருவ வட்ட மழகிய  பொருத்த மிலியைக் கண்டீரே

Praising the ornament on his chest- the Vanamala- as a ‘lightening over dark clouds’ they say there was one such lad playing with another bunch of boys in Brindavan. His eyes were as beautiful as a Lotus and one that captivates anyone who glances at him. He was like a chubby elephant calf that is decked with pearls.

Andal sings praise of her Lord as being invincible comparing him to a boar that escaped.  He is like the decorated temple bull calf that is taken around the temple prakara. The Lord too looks handsome in his yellow robe.

She says that he finds joy in helping cows drink water from the pool. He plays as equals with other cowherds. She praises Garuda as providing shelter to the Lord from the hot Sun and compares her beloved to a young elephant calf that plays around happily. He is always encircled with huge followers – boys and beautiful girls. He destroyed so many asuras with such ease – Dhenuka, Baka, Kuvalaya Tusker – the list is just endless. The Gopis tell her that they saw him in Brindavan returning after a game of hunting.

காட்டை நாடித் தேனுகனும் களிறும் புள்ளும் உடன் மடிய
வேட்டையாடி வருவானை விருந்தாவனத்தே கண்டோமே

Ordinary mind cannot grasp him
Andal says the ordinary mind cannot grasp him quickly. She also praises the physical features as being dark like a cloud. Her friends praise the young boy whom they saw at Brindavan as one glittering like stars on a bright night.

வெளிய சந்கோன்ருடையானைப் பீதக வாடை யுடையானை
அலி  நன்குடைய திருமாலை ஆழியானைக் கண்டீரே

Through these verses, Andal presents the message to the true devotees that the Lord seen with a white conch and chakra and sporting a yellow robe has compassionate qualities and blesses the faithful with everything in life. She also finally reconfirms that this is all just a sport for the Lord and he is a pure one who takes care of the Noble. 

Thursday, January 21, 2016

Sankapani VV

The dashing opener from Mylapore set city grounds ablaze in the 80s with cavalier Caribbean style strokeplay at the top of the order

He incurred the wrath of many a Mylapore Paatti breaking window glasses with unwavering regularity with his pulls into the neighbourhood homes!!!
He rejected tempting job offers and ‘cricketing deals’ from other 1st division clubs as the lure of being Cheeka’s exclusive opening partner kept him at Alwarpet for well over a decade and thus lived his cricketing life under Cheeka's Shadow
When the U15 national tournament was conceptualised and introduced for the first time in 1979-80, a young 14 year old from Alamelumangapuram, Mylapore instantly caught the eye with his dashing stroke play. He was not from a great financial background and used to stitch his own cricket gloves as a school boy!!! His first kit bag was made of ‘gunny’ bag.

He was one of the most consistent batsmen for South Zone in the inaugural edition of this inter Zonal U15 tourney.  

Spotting his genuine potential as a swashbuckling opener, his classmate at Vidya Mandir L Sivaramakrishnan suggested that he directly get into first division. And thus VV Sankapani in a rare move for a cricketer in Madras, signed up with first division team Globe Trotters as his first league team in the TNCA league in 1979 before he had touched 15years!!!

In those early years, he would board the bus from Mylapore along with L Sivaramakrishnan for the nets sessions at Chepauk. On the way back, LS would get him groundnut and lassi. Sanku is extremely grateful to LS for the support extended to him in that phase of his life. His mates from those days include WV Raman and M Sanjay.

A couple of years later, I looked forward to watching Sankapani in the U19 city v districts match in Coimbatore only for him to disappoint as he fell to a first ball duck playing for the city team against the Districts in November 1982. However, he made it up later in the month with a typically aggressive century at the Marina in the return match.

The string of big scores that season including a belligerent 73 against Central Zone helped him get into the U19 national summer camp alongside WV Raman, Sabha Karim and Chetan Sharma. But as luck would have it that U19 tour of Sri Lanka was called off due to the ethnic problem. That was the closest Sanku came to National Selection.

Long Association with TVS Alwarpet
After playing for Prithvi for a few years, Sankapani signed up for Alwarpet in the mid 80s in what was to turn out to be a long association with the TVS team. He was at his peak playing for Alwarpet opening along with K Srikkanth.

On many occasions, he led the batting onslaught leaving Srikkanth smiling at the other end. Sankapani once hit Harvindar Singh Sodhi of MCC for 32runs in a single over at Chepauk. In another match, he hit I Rajkumar (one of the fastest bowlers in the Chennai league at that time) for 21runs in an over on a matting wicket at the Union Ground with one six landing on the tennis Court at the far end and another that thudded on to the score board at the pavilion end. Twice Sankapani hit him out of the Stadium at Chepauk. He also hit Robin Singh on to the roof at Chepauk.

In a Chemplast Pasadena match, he hit the first two balls of the match of R Prabhakar out of the ground with the third that raced to the fence. During that phase, he also hit MRF trainees Shakti Singh and Vivek Razdan for 20+ runs in a single over.

Playing against J Gokulakrishnan at his peak, Sankapani, opening alongside K Srikkanth played yet another blistering knock getting out for 99 (not for the first time in his career) at the SPIC YMCA ground. He hit Niranjan Kumar on to the Cooum.

Gokulakrishnan who is currently the Tamil Nadu U19 coach says that many a time Sanku outscored Cheeka who would then funnily and sportingly acknowledge his partner’s achievement. ‘In a MCC Dyanora match, Sanku literally walked down the pitch to play our team’s new ball bowler (TNCA Colts) that the bowler was happy to not bowl again!!!!’

Talented but did not focus enough!!!
PK Dharmalingam was the coach of Vidya Mandir during the 1970s and later for Alwarpet in the 1980s. Through that period, Dharmalingam watched Sankapani very closely. He is of the view that Sanku was a great talent but failed to fulfil his potential. ‘Sanku was a brilliant bat and an outstanding talent. He was a gifted cricketer with a penchant for attacking stroke play. But he never seemed to know his capacity and hence did not quite reach his potential. Sankapani enjoyed his cricket but at times it was far too much fun.’

With Sanku, Dharmaji's toughness did not work and he just could not be controlled. He was always bubbling with joy making others happy. Dharma believes that if Sanku was a little more serious about his game and concentrated a little more, he would have played higher level for he was a truly gifted player. ‘When I compare Srikkanth and Sankapani when they were in their mid teens, I would say Sanku had the potential to be a much better player but Sanku did not do justice to his talent.’

Dhamalingam once umpired a Hindu Trophy match at Chepauk where Srikkanth and Sankapani opening the innings. He says that they matched each other stroke for stroke. When Srikkanth hit a four, Sanku would come down and tell him that he would strike one too. And the ball then went souring over the fence. Huge crowd gathered wherever Alwarpet played just to watch the two of them bat together. And there would be discussions on who would outshine the other that day. And on many occasions, Sankapani won that battle.

He had a quick eye and was very instinctive in his stroke play. As a cricketer, he was very well behaved. As a batsman, he had no inhibitions and would take on and hit out at the fastest of bowlers.  He always had a smiling face and was a jovial cricketer. He was a happy go lucky cricketer and was one of the big entertainers in the city league cricket in the 80s.

Taking on TA Sekar
TA Sekar, one of the fastest bowlers TN has seen, was at the top of his pace and one morning, at the Vivekananda College ground, playing for Jolly Rovers, he ran in right from the Sight Screen. It was a breathtaking sight to watch and it would have sent jitters in the opposition ranks just seeing him run in from that distance. But not Sanku. Batting fearlessly with just a cap, Sankapani took on Sekar that morning even daring to come down the pitch. 

R Madhavan’s role
During his long stint at Alwarpet, it was the advice of R Madhavan, who he rates as the best captain, that had a great impact on his game. His instinctive style and an over aggressive approach led to his string of inconsistent scores. It was Madhavan who helped him convert some of his rapid starts into centuries. Sanku scored over ten centuries for Alwarpet besides having almost a similar string of scores in the 90s .

Madhavan instilled the importance of patience and egged Sanku to take a single when the hands were itching to play the lofted shots. Madhavan would run many short singles to get Sanku off strike to allow him time to regain his composure.

I was in awe of Sanku
Murrays Auction's Hemant Srivatsa, a team mate at Alwarpet in the late 80s says that he was always in awe of Sanku's talent and his stroke play. ' We are talking about a guy who as a teenager hit a six over cover at Eden Gardens in the early 80s. Anything that Sanku did on the cricket field was extremely natural and he was one guy who most coaches would have broken their brains over. He was three years my senior at Vidya Mandir and I was always in awe of him.' 
He was a brilliant fielder at any position. I have seen him take some brilliant catches and also effect outstanding run outs. His game was ideally suited for limited overs cricket. I always felt he had the Caribbean spirit about him - absolutely cavalier and enjoyed the game to the hilt. He should have certainly played for TN. Probably staying in Srikkanth's shadows ruined his chances. He was certainly a far more talented cricketer than Srikkanth.

Once I came up against him a Chemplast Pasadena match. He was finding it quite hard to pick the movement and was beaten quite a bit in the first balls of my over. I managed to peg him on to the back foot. Looking to finish off with a maiden, I bowled what according to me was a perfect left arm bowler's delivery to a right hander - short of length pitching middle and off seaming away towards the slips. This guy rushed down the wicket and pulled the ball of the front foot depositing it outside the University Union ground. This one over has always stayed in my mind. I have always been petrified bowling to him ever since. I am sure many bowlers have felt that way when Sanku walked into bat. 

One of the most dynamic openers 
Another Alwarpet team mate K Ravishankar played together for many years with Sankapani right from his Vidya Mandir school days. In fact in the final of a Buchi Babu Trophy tourney well over two decades ago, it was Ravishankar who replaced Sanku in the playing XI at the final moment after recovering from illness in the previous match (that was the closest Sankapani came to selection in the Buchi Babu Trophy).

Ravishankar has the highest words of praise for Sanku. ‘He was probably the most dynamic and aggressive openers that I have seen in the city. In an inter-zonal U 19 game dating back to the 1980s, Sanku hit the first ball of the innings bowled by Chetan Sharma with effortless ease out of Eden Gardens.
Ravi remembers another match when Sanku came down the pitch to TA Sekar and hit out at him in a way that only he could. ‘On many occasions, Sanku outscored Srikkanth in the early part of the innings much to the delight of the huge crowd that used to come to watch him bat.’ Sanku would often jump out to the fastest of bowlers with least of fears.

He played at a time when there were top class openers like Srikkanth and VB and hence he probably lost out on opportunities to play higher grade of cricket, says Ravi with a tinge of sadness for Sanku.

A bouncer from Lillee that almost knocked him down!!!
Dennis Lillee watched Sankapani score a belligerent 60+ for Alwarpet against Port Trust at Pachaiappas B hitting the fast bowlers repeatedly out of the ground on to the Pachaiappas A ground where MRF were playing their league match. Soon after the match, Dennis Lillee called on him to have a nets session at the MRF ground almost throwing up an open challenge. The Australian legend bowled six balls to Sankapani each of which was real quick. After Sanku cut one with great power to point, an angry Lillee came up to Sanku and pointed to his forehead in his typical Aussie style. The next one was a real quick bouncer that almost knocked Sanku off the ground. That was the greatness of Lillee, recounts Sankapani looking back on that day when he just about managed to save his head.

Greatness of Greg Chappell
Another Aussie played a significant role in Sankapani’s career. It was 15minutes with Greg Chappell that helped him make a slight adjustment to the position of his elbow. While he originally was a strong player on the leg side, this correction strengthened his off side play. In the two games that followed, he scored a century and a 65.

Favourite Ground – PS High School
While he has delighted many residents in the Alamelumangapuram area who had the privilege of watching him bat at the PS High School ground right from their balcony, he has also been a reason for infuriating many grandmas in the region. Innumerable pulls on to the leg side ended up with a loud breaking noise as he shattered the glass panes of their windows in the first and second floor of the nearby flats.

Irreristable Sanku 'CHAKRA' Pani
For a period in the 80s, Sanku was spoken of in the same vein as Srikkanth for his dashing style of play. At the peak of his career, he had offers from leading organisations including MRF, Indian Bank, RBI and the Income Tax. However, he rejected each of those tempting offers preferring the partnership with his long time friend and India star Srikkanth.

There are many who achieve greatness with the number of runs and centuries they score. Many remember Sankapani for the sheer joy he gave the cricket fan in the 80s and 90s with his fearless style of cricket. Big names simply did not matter to him.

Over a decade ago, long after he quit first division cricket I umpired a league match at Vivekananda College. Sankapani opened the batting that morning for a fourth division team. Immediately after play was called at 930 am, the ball went thudding into the wall way beyond Long On. By the time, the 2nd drinks was taken at 11.30am, he had reached yet another blistering century. That day he once again showed glimpses of the gifted talent leaving the opposition clueless on how to control his stroke play.

Like many an innings throughout his career, it was finally his own indiscretion that led to his downfall that day. But by then, he had made the red cherry cry for a little bit of respite.

For the true cricket fans of Madras, all that mattered was to watch Sanku in action for 30-45 minutes and their day was made. And the famous groundnut walla of the 1980s would bid good bye to the fans in the D Stand at Chepauk once Sanku was out!!!!

People have almost always got his name wrong. To many, he is Sankupani. But there may be some truth to that. Like Krishna’s Conch (Sanku), he announced his arrival with a destructive blow dealt with his bat that most times had no answer (similar to Lord’s Chakra).

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Ananth Devarajan eyes Euro TT league

The 17 Year old Vidya Mandir (Mylapore) school boy is working hard towards International success and is hoping to make a long term career in Table Tennis 
Ananth Devarajan has jumped to Number 4 in National TT Rankings in Junior Boys this year
Vidya Mandir has been known for producing some quality cricketers in the decades gone bye. However, a Mylapore boy chose a completely different sport away from this popular one. And he has made rapid strides in his sporting journey shooting up into the top four in the national Table Tennis rankings in Junior Boys. This season, he has been the top ranked player in Tamil Nadu in the Junior Boys category.
It was an interesting move by his father when the boy was just 7years. Devarajan was a quality Shuttle player, but he initiated his son Ananth into Table Tennis away from a sport played by his father all through his teenage years.

And soon, the father’s move seemed to be vindicated for the young boy lapped on to TT showing great interest in a game that no one in his family had previously played. He practiced three hours every day thrice a week under three different coaches - Ravi Venkatesh, Vasu and Ramachandran focusing on improving his reflexes, consistency and speed as well as on receiving and delivering the service

By the time he was 10, he started winning tournaments and was ranked third in the U12 category. He moved into the top position in U 14 and was the state Number one for two years. To date Ananth has won over 20 tournaments. This season (2015-16) alone he has won 6 out of the 9 state ranking tournaments.

In the inter school CBSE clusters tournament, Ananth won Gold representing his school in TN state clusters. He also won the Silver medal in the individual boys U19 singles in the national CBSE inter -school clusters tournament.

Beats India No. 1 in 2015-16
In the Zonals held earlier this season in Thane, Ananth beat India No. 1, his best win to-date. He is currently ranked No. 2 in the state in Youth Boys (U 19) category.

Ananth Devarajan will soon be playing for India in an international ‘Junior Boys’ tournament based on his top four national ranking.In the last one year, Ananth Devarajan, a class XII student of Vidya Mandir

Taking up TT professionally
The good news is that Ananth is confident of taking to TT as a career now that he is confident of beating the big guns in India. His immediate aim is to finish in the Top 8 in the national rankings in U19 and to maintain his No. 1 ranking in the state. If he maintains the top four national ranking over the next couple of years, competing in the Euro League is a real possibility.

With Ananth set to enter college life later this year, it is hoped that his shuttler father will continue to encourage him to pursue his interest in TT in his quest for higher glory.

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Andal enduring Love Torture

Outpourings from a girl’s tender heart
 One needs to offer sincere prayers to the Lord and not be impatient with him for the Returns

Through the Nachiyar Thirumozhi, Andal describes her own experience when she tries to reach out to the Lord. It is a clear message to the devotees that it is not easy to attain the Lord and that one cannot get impatient with him. It is likely that the Lord is testing out the true devotion in the devotee by not acceding to his prayers instantly.

One has to continue to offer one’s prayers to the Lord irrespective of the reaction (or lack of it) from the Lord. In fact, at the end of this decad, frustrated at his lack of acceptance, Andal even goes to the extent of asking if she has to take another birth to attain him and if by doing so, whether she will be able to reach him when he has not answered her sincere prayers in this present birth.

She sought help from her relatives and friends to reach out to the Lord. But other than sympathy and a few words of advice, they were not able to assist her, further compounding her misery.

In this penultimate decad of the Nachiyar Thirmozhi, she pleads with them to at least bring some of the ornaments worn by her beloved that she hopes will bring some relief to her. She asks for his golden robe, the basil garland, the ornament on his chest, the nectar from his lips and even the left over mud created by the movement of his feet. She even seeks the spit from the hole of the flute that he plays.

Fan me with his yellow robe
Similar to the previous decad, Andal begins this one by ordering the world to stop their advice to her especially given the state of despair she has been in. If in the previous one, she retorted that any advice on her love would be like one given by deaf to a dumb, here she states that any talk of wisdom from the experts on love would amount to pouring tamarind over an already injured wound and is likely to add salt to her injury. She is not seeking pity from anyone.

‘Don’t you understand the feelings of a woman who is struck with grief?’

Instead if they truly cared for her well being, she asks them to bring the beautiful yellow silk robe from the waist of her beloved so she can be fanned with it and derive some comfort from it.

கண்ணனென்னும் கருந்தெய்வம் காட்சி பழகிக் கிடப்பேனை
புண்ணில் புளிப் பெய்தாற் போலப் புறம் நின்று அழகு பேசாதே

பெண்ணின் வருத்தம் அறியாத பெருமான் அறையில் பீதக
வண்ண வாடை கொண்டு என்னை வாட்டம் தணிய வீசீரே

Please control your tongue
She praises the Lord as one seen in a sleeping posture in Thiru Kudanthai. Asking them to stop their lectures and teasing her repeatedly with their words, she says it is hurting her and the words are particularly piercing her like a spear. After seeking his robe in the first decad, she now wants them to bring the Tulasi garland worn by him at Thiru Kudanthai.

வேலால் துன்னம் பெய்தாற்போல் வேண்டிற்றெல்லாம் பேசாதே

While he has sent out a message that he protects the good and asks them to fear not, she has not been able to see him despite her sincere prayers in Margazhi that was followed in the subsequent months of Thai and Panguni. She has sent several communications to him through various sources (as seen earlier in the Nachiyar Thirumozhi).

Yellow Robe, Tulasi Garland and now Vanamala
And she wants more of him. Her bosom is longing for him. If he does not play false, and agrees to part with the Vanamala that he adorns on his chest, she wants it to be brought to her and rubbed on her bosom to enliven her spirit and to rekindle her sagging energy.

Get me the nectar from his lips
Her desperation indicates that these are her last wishes to save her life and to unite with him. She lay in despair in a state that she sees is beyond repair. She asks for nectar to be brought from his sweet lips before it dries out to help renew her spirit. This may possibly be ‘the only thing that can save my life.’

ஆரா அமுத மனையான் தன் அமுத வாயி லூறிய
நீர்தான் கொணர்ந்து புலராமே பருக்கி இளைப்பை நீக்கீரே

Even the Spit from the Flute hole is sacred!!!
For long, she has wept and prayed expressing a desire to be caressed and embraced by him.  And yet he has not even shown his face. He is enjoying himself by grazing cows in the forest playing the flute to the delight of the birds and the animals there when the young girl is seeking his love. Her longing for him is so deep that she wants them to bring the spittle that dribbles from the hole in the flute to wipe the tears in her eyes that are trickling down her cheeks in a hope to freshen her face.

அழிலும் தொழிலும் உருக்காட்டான் அஞ்சே லென்னான் அவன் ஒருவன்
தழுவி முழுவி புகுந்து என்னை சுற்றி சுழன்று போகானால்

தழையின் பொழில் வாய் நிரைப்பினே நெடுமாலூதி வருகின்ற
குழலின் தொnலை வாய்நீர் கொண்டு குளிர முகத்து தடவீரே

Is there justice in this world?
She refers to this world as one where there is no law. She calls her beloved as the son of Nandagopala who has shown no signs of discipline and takes law into his own hands. He has compounded her injuries by kicking her mentally and crippling her. In such a state of despair, she says that it is okay to even smear the mud and the dust created by his foot prints on her face and all over her body.  She feels that even that will be refreshing for her in her current mood.

நான் போட்கன் மிதித்த அடிப்பாட்டில்
பொடித்தான் கொணர்ந்து
பூசிர்கள் போகா உயிர் என்னுடம்பையே

Relief from Pangs of Separation?
She has not allowed anyone to touch her breasts as these were meant exclusively for him. However he seems to continue to be unjust. Even his mother seems to have accepted him as a wonder child beyond her control. It is time to bind him firmly by the arms and bring him to justice. She will be relieved from the pangs of separation only when his broad chest embraces her loving breasts.
குற்ற முற்ற முலை தன்னைக்
குமரன் கொலப்பனைத் தோளோடு
அற்ற குற்றம் அவை தீர அணைய
அமுக்கிக் கட்டீரே

Extreme display of Love
Andal expresses her extreme state of frustration at the lack of attention from her beloved. She goes to the extent of calling him a highway ‘rogue’. While she is pleading for his love, he has not even enquired about her and replied to any of her many messages. He does not even care to know whether she is alive or not.

In anger, she says that when he arrives (which she expects will happen someday in her life), she will tear her breasts and fling at his handsome chest in a way to settle ‘old’ scores with him. That way the desire that has been burning in her heart will finally be extinguished and he will get a real fee of her love for him and how he has hurt her over time by not accepting the true prayers of a sincere devotee.

உள்ளே உருகி நைவேனை உளளோ இலளோ வென்னாத
கொள்ளைக் கொள்ளிக் குறும்பனைக் கோவர்தனனைக் கண்டக்கால்

கொள்ளும் பயனொன்றில்லாத கொங்கை தன்னைக் கிழங் கோடும்
அள்ளிப் பறித்திட்டு அவன் மார்விலெரிந்து என்னழலைத் தீர்வேனே

She wonders as to his ability to serve her breasts in his next life if he does not satisfy her in this present birth. Will it not be futile to have another birth. She wonders as to what penance will she be able to do in the next birth to convince him of her love.

Hug me or say I don’t accept you
She ends the decad providing two options. One is to hug her by her bosom to convey the acceptance of her love for him.

செம்மையுடைய  திருமார்வில் சேரத்தானேலும் ஒரு ஞான்று
மெய்ம்மை சொல்லி முகம் நோக்கி
விடைதான் தருமேல் மிக நன்றே

And if that is impossible and if he bids adieu, she will at least know ‘what his views are on her.’